My dilemma now – to post or not to post. I feel awful. I want to put something in writing. I need to do it. At the same time, I wonder if I should post it. Can you understand this? If you do, then you know how I feel.
I had a horrible day. I tried to get hold of Dr. H to tell him that my pharmacy has already got the Armour Natural Thyroid. He is not in the office this week, so I was told to try to reach him by email. I did, and he answered right away, but he does not agree with me. He thinks we need to wait to change medications until it is time, towards the end of the month. The new dosage will not kick in until then. But we are only changing the brand, not the dosage! I am not too happy with the compound because you never know if they do it correctly, even if the pharmacy is the best. Some people think alike. On the other hand, I also understand that we may have to wait until it is time to have the dosage changed along with the brand.
Why all of a sudden do I feel so down? I was happy yesterday, as Ludy is back and she rushed here, even with a sore throat, to help me. With her back in town I feel more “protected”! So, why this anguish? I was so upset after I got Dr. H’s message that I sent an urgent mail to Dr. P and asked him to call the pharmacy and order the Armour Thyroid for me. He did right away, but Guido has persuaded me not to take it until Dr. H gives the go ahead. He may be right, but I wish I could do something now, even if we don’t know if the change will help. Dr. H does not think it will, but then, what?
Do I feel better for having written this? I don’t know, but it may help me sleep better, as I may be more relaxed. And I really don’t care much if people read it. It is mainly for myself, to vent my frustrations and to be less irritable. Poor Guido has to put up with a lot these days…and I cannot help it!