Expectations for the Near Future

Today Rosana left.  I already miss her… Now I have to look forward to Valeria’s arrival on the 24th.  I need to have expectations for the future, as I am still quite sick. It is almost impossible for me to get out of bed until late in the day, no matter how hard I try.

Thanks to several good friends I am surviving — through the most important gift they can give me, besides love — food. I am getting a lot of this.  Many are bringing and sending delicacies that I do not have the time to cook. And Guido is also lending a big helping hand.

Rosana brought many figs from San Francisco, and we are still enjoying them now. They are absolutely delicious, nothing like the wrinkled and dry ones they have here…

I cannot even answer individual emails. I did answer some Facebook and Blog comments, as they are easy to write.  When I get better I will be answering in more detail.  For now, you have to wait, and help me get better.  Send good vibes my way, prayers, whatever, please. I need anything and everything you want to send to help us both be well —  once and for all!

Starting tomorrow, I will do my best to try to get out of bed, even if it is a few minutes every day… I cannot stand being like this!

Now, I want to go back to a post that I think still applies. It is fitting to read it again, for me too:

Once again, while reading Harlan Coben’s Caught, I came across a comment that I found very appropriate to our situation.  In the novel it applies to someone’s death, but it can be equally applied to a long illness.  It says “Grief is devastating, all-consuming.  But grief merely visits friends, even the closest.  It stays much longer … with the family…”

We have lost many friends along the road during these past four years, and we will certainly lose even more.  Some have dropped us, but we have dropped others. That’s why I continue to insist that blogs and Facebook are much better than collective messages.  We are not defiling anyone’s email box nor intruding in their lives.  As with our Facebook friends, they read what they want in this blog, and they respond as they see fit or not at all.

I want to continue singing the praises of Facebook.  It connects me to the world, as I had already said, and I have “found” many old friends and made new ones.  But what is most important is that today I got a message to the members of Stop The Thyroid Madness, a group I have joined.  These messages help enormously!  And I can only get them through Facebook.  They are a great support group, as I don’t need to be in a specific place at a specific time – it is 7/24, 365 days!!!

I need to be in touch with people who understand how I feel and what I am going through, even if I don’t know them. I feel better reading what they post, I can ask them questions, and I learn a lot from them.


Good night and good luck…


About martisima

After over 50 years of teaching literature to undergraduate and graduate students, I feel I have earned my retirement (it happened when I was 72, five years ago). I do miss the classroom, however, but not the meetings and all other requirements of the profession. I love teaching, and wish I could still do it. But now I read for pleasure, and watch films, and listen to all kinds of music (no TV, though). I love to travel, and hope I can resume doing it soon. I need to get over my health issues caused by thyroid surgery three years ago!
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2 Responses to Expectations for the Near Future

  1. Rafael says:

    My good vibes coming at you! You’re in my thoughts, even though I don’t get much time to write. I’m glad that you’ve begun using Facebook. A thyroid group? Who knew? Well, now you know! Makes sense, and I’m glad you found some compatriots. Please don’t be too hard on yourself. Your body is trying to rest and adjust. It takes time, perhaps more than you’d like. But that’s what having a physical body requires. Remain calm; place your seat in the upright position; turn off any electronic devices… 😉

    • martisima says:

      Thanks so much, dear Rafael! My body wants to rest too much, and I need to get up and move more. How do I tell my body to listen to me? I cannot remain calm, unfortunately, but I appreciate your comment!

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