I dislike people who whine. I dislike all those who bitch and complain. Why do I do it then? Maybe I think I have a good reason for it. I have not chosen my plight. It came without warning. And it has gone on for too long. And I had never been sick before nor had any kind of surgery. Is this a good excuse? Well, it is for me now…
These days I am a double whiner. Guido has very bad back problems, something that had not happened in a long time. It used to happen more often. After his surgery in 1976 he has never been completely well. But now it cam back at a time when I am feeling very sick. And we have nobody who can help.
Jean-Paul and Ludy came to visit on Friday, but they could not stay long, since Guido could not be up. It is at times like this one that I feel even worse for not being closer to our daughters, who are really the only ones who know how to help us.
To make matters worse, Thanksgiving is coming up. It is a holiday that makes families get together, eat, talk, eat, reminisce, eat, shop… What will we be eating? Same as every other day. Yes, we can give thanks that we are together, but at times it doesn’t even seem like that. We are both so down and so tired that we don’t talk much to each other … Sad, very sad, indeed 😦
What cheers me up? Some great Facebook friends, who keep sending me the most heartfelt and supportive messages; reading; listening to music; watching films. All are isolated and isolating pastimes, but that’s all I have now.
Some ask if the weather affects me. It does not. It doesn’t matter if it is sunny or cloudy. I am at home and it makes no difference. Even if I have to got see the doctor, all I do is get in the car inside the garage, and get out of it when we reach the doctor’s office. Not much. I am not allowed to drive, so I have to depend on others too much. Again – sad, very sad indeed.
So, better stop here an go watch some funny movies (Mel Brooks, for one, or the Coen brothers), or listen to Tom Lehrer’s songs or to Les Luthiers (an Argentine group, in spite of their name). They make me laugh out loud, and it feels good!
Good night and good luck!